Okay well I guess if you are reading about this you may want to know a bit more about me so here goes…
I have lived in Australia my whole life and am currently studying at university. My friends and family are literally my life. I love tattoos and piercings. I have four tattoos (wrist, back, ribs and foot) and a few piercings including my lip) :)
I have had body image issues for as long as I can remember. As a kid I had a lot of ‘puppy fat’ and lost the majority of it when I was about 10-12 years old. I was really slim, but then I hit high school! Which is where a lot of my issues stemmed from I guess. I went to an all girls school and basically all we did was sit around and talk/eat. There was no running around playing on the playground like high school. This is when the kilos started to pile on. By 13 I was on my first real ‘fad diet’ which consisted of shakes (More shakes than real food). I lost a fair bit of weight on that and of course subsequently put it all plus more back on!! After then I tried the diet a few times off and on but only ever lost 1 or 2 kilos before giving up. More issues then came from me getting my licence and not having to walk anywhere and having access to food day or night. Turning 18 and going clubbing/binge drinking also played a massive part in my weight issues. I lived a very unhealthy life style and it was starting to take its toll on me. I could easily drink up to 4 nights a week. This left no room for a healthy life style as I was always hungover.
Okay so on the 31st of August 2011 a guy I really liked just stopped talking to me out of no where. He said he just couldn’t have me in this life and he was doing me a favour because he wasn’t a good person. So I was really upset, not like just a little bit, I’m talking crying so hard you can’t breathe. I remember that day so well and I remember stripping down to my underwear and looking in the mirror and just being horrified, I could not believe what I had become. I didn’t recognise my body and at that very second knew I had to do something about it to not only make myself feel better but for my health. Don’t get me wrong I never did it for ‘him’ or for anyone, but what he definitely served as the wake up call I needed to change my life for the better. 1st September 2011 was the first day of the rest of my healthy, better life. This is by far the longest I have ever stuck to a “diet” per say but I wouldnt even consider what I am doing now a diet, as cliche as it sounds I have literally changed my life and this is a lifestyle change that I never plan on giving up. It’s not even about getting ‘skinny’ for me, I just want to be proud of my body, I want to LOVE my body, I want to be fit and strong and I want to prove to myself that I truly am capable of anything I set my mind to.
I have learned so much about changing my life since becoming a part of tumblr. There is a lot of free education and support which I find just incredible. I also love the idea of being able to talk to other people who are going through what I am doing as sometimes I don’t think the people in my life understand (through no fault of their own).
Anyways this tumblr isn’t strictly just for fitness/health and I will often reblog something that may not even relate to that but I guess it has a lot to do with my background. If you are still reading this, I’m sorry its so long but I should probably explain why I always reblog things about suicide etc. When I was 11 years old I lost both my Aunty and my Dad to suicide only a few months apart. This of course completely changed my life and the way I look at the world. Suicide absolutely breaks my heart and I seriously just wish I could reach out to every person who has ever thought their life wasn’t worth living. I am seriously here for anyone, day or night whoever needs to talk. I urge people to be more suicide aware as well, it still continues to be such a taboo topic and is such a silent killer. I will never ever judge you and ALWAYS listen. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It DOES get better, I promise you, you just have to be around to see it :)
Im sorry for this being so long, I could literally write forever but I really shouldn’t. Thank you so much for reading. If you ever want to know anything about me, feel free to ask. :) xxx